Not as easy as it looks

Beta #3 was 3200. My numbers are great.
My OB told me that I could get a sono at week 5 because the numbers were so high that there could be more than one bean in here. Well, the numbers are not that high, but my OB is not used to testing this early either..anyways, I went ahead and got the sono done. Who would decline a sono, right?? There is one baby. Measuring a couple of days ahead. There is also a subchronich hemorrhage. Great, right?? Well, the OB that was at the office when I got the sono thought that I was bleeding already and went ahead and gave me "the speech"...well, it is early, don´t keep your hopes up...and all that...I told him I wasn´t bleeding, but the tech wanted him to review the sono results. He said that we could do another sono in 2 weeks, at 7 weeks. The hemorrhage is very small (.4 cm), so we have a pretty good chance.

After this sono, I came home anf felt the same way I did when I lost the other baby. Completely numb, and shocked. Why did I think that the hard times where over already??!! How could I??
It feels like I have to endure all these pregnancy symptoms until they tell me it´s over. I know I am overreacting, but I can´t help it. I hope it all works out. I am going to focus on my new teaching job that starts tomorrow, and try to make it to the next sono.
Renovation Girl, how do you do it?? You are so strong. I admire you.

Positive!!

It is positive!!

Beta at 7dp5dt was 49
Beta at 9dp5dt was 148

Morning sickness...check!
Tired..check!
Sore boobs...check check!!

SO happy...and scared...so scared

Impatience

I have never been able to hold off on anything. Since I was a child. I guess I was lucky my parents gave me a lot.
It is still the same. I woke up today like a child in Christmas morning. I went and POASed (eventhough we are at 6dp5dt). AND, I saw a very faint line!!!! I hope that´s a positive this early.
This time around we are using Cri.none and Es.trace, as well as a h.cg booster shot at the time of transfer, so I am cramping like bad PMS, and I have this dull lower back pain. I am not sure if its the hormones, but it is a lot...really early.

Anyways, I already went into the forbidden world of baby.center and saw my due date. How crazy am I?? After a m/c 3 years ago!! I should know better and keep the computer away..but I really can´t. I pray that this one stays for the long run.

My husband´s response: I will be happy when you are 9 months pregnant.
I am so happy to have some POSITIVE news. You guys and my mother and husband are the only ones that know. I won´t say a word until a positive blood test, and that´s just because I have groupies cheering me on through this one. So many people has been helping me so much during this cycle. It is so overwhelming.

I'm back!

Hello bloggy friends,
I am sorry it has taken me this long to post. It was hard to come back. I felt like I had nothing to share, because I was stuck in the TTC process.
I am happy to report that I had a sFET today. I feel pretty positive about it, and I also feel like I can handle either outcome because I've been through it already. We'll see, right? I decided to pay at N.ew Ho.pe in N.ew Y.ork. I tried to get in the FREE trial, but because I had a previous I,VF done, I was not allowed. They have a great team and I really trust them. I am doing most of the monitoring locally and the major parts in the city. I have friends that let me/us stay with them. Amazingly generous of them. I did a Mi.ni-IV.F cycle. Only Clo.mid and Men.opur which still led me to have OH.SS...just a little bit. Awful thing. I had 5 frosties ( 4 as of today), all 5 day blasts and one an exp. blast. Great outcome. It was a great summer vacation for us. We visited all the main attractions, and felt like we were at home. It has been a great experience. Now, I will not do IV.F again. I have these 5 chances, and I will use them all, but I will not go through retrieval again. I have come to terms with our situation and I am happy as we are. This is all we can do.

I just want to say that I still read your blogs, I know I don't comment much anymore. I am sorry. I am super busy though.
Congrats Baby Ruth!! Sofi es una preciosidad!