Friday, January 8, 2010

Coming to terms..

I´ve done a lot of thinking. I have to come to terms with what I want and what I can get.
What do I want? I want another baby.
Options: 1. IVF 2. Adoption
2 is out of the question for now. DH doesn´t feel like he can do it, or needs to do it because we already have one child.
1 we can consider. We cannot afford to do it at the rates the U.S is charging us. Our only option is here, in Spain.
What can I get? I can get my baby in Spain. I have to go through with this if I want it. I´ve been looking at the calendar.
I am so bored right now, that I´m going to break it down for my 2 or 3 readers:
AF will be here in approx.10 days. DH has to come here at around those days to get 3 Sperm ¨donations¨ in a row (one every 2 days). They can get my 1st b/w (CD 2).We´ll all leave in a plane together direct to Miami so we can meet my new niece and see my in-laws.
After that, I can get my CD 22 b/w and start the BCP in the U.S. I will travel back to Spain right before AF comes back. Then, I´ll have to be in Spain for 1 or 2 IVF cycles depending on what I need. It should be a minimum of 3 weeks to a max of 7 or 8.
Total time away from my husband: 3 weeks in January. 3-8 weeks in March/April.
My daughter will be in school 1 month in January and another to two in March/April.
I can do this. I will be bored and anxious, but I can do it because I can try for my baby...
I don´t even want to think about the "what if´s"...I just read Jo´s blog (MoJo Working) and it´s just heartbreaking...
Well, and that is it for now.

1 comment:

  1. Eek on the time away. It's practical to look at your options in what you have to live with versus what you want. It still makes the time away suck. While I love seeing my parents in Cali, I don't want to be away from my hubby and dog for the three weeks to get my stuff done. After him being away for a year, I want every second with him. It will pass right...? :)