I´ve done a lot of thinking. I have to come to terms with what I want and what I can get.
What do I want? I want another baby.
Options: 1. IVF 2. Adoption
2 is out of the question for now. DH doesn´t feel like he can do it, or needs to do it because we already have one child.
1 we can consider. We cannot afford to do it at the rates the U.S is charging us. Our only option is here, in Spain.
What can I get? I can get my baby in Spain. I have to go through with this if I want it. I´ve been looking at the calendar.
I am so bored right now, that I´m going to break it down for my 2 or 3 readers:
AF will be here in approx.10 days. DH has to come here at around those days to get 3 Sperm ¨donations¨ in a row (one every 2 days). They can get my 1st b/w (CD 2).We´ll all leave in a plane together direct to Miami so we can meet my new niece and see my in-laws.
After that, I can get my CD 22 b/w and start the BCP in the U.S. I will travel back to Spain right before AF comes back. Then, I´ll have to be in Spain for 1 or 2 IVF cycles depending on what I need. It should be a minimum of 3 weeks to a max of 7 or 8.
Total time away from my husband: 3 weeks in January. 3-8 weeks in March/April.
My daughter will be in school 1 month in January and another to two in March/April.
I can do this. I will be bored and anxious, but I can do it because I can try for my baby...
I don´t even want to think about the "what if´s"...I just read Jo´s blog (MoJo Working) and it´s just heartbreaking...
Well, and that is it for now.