IVF is so scary..

I just went to Lost and Found and read http://lastamericangirlstanding.blogspot.com/2009/10/how-did-you-feel.html.
Kim here, has had many surgeries and is totally afraid of IVF. I am too. I hate doctors and all the stuff the do to us. I showed it to my husband because she expresses herself so well...Her words are a rollercoaster.
He said that hers was a totally different situation, because I would just need 1 round of IVF (yeah, right) and because she had to get more things done that I won't need.
He didn't get the point at all...
I'm I the only one that feels like their husband doesn't give a crap??!. Then we started the same as always argument and he ended up saying that he was OK with just having 1 kid.
I guess I just need to let go.
Well, going on with the title of this post, I'm really scared to do it period. Even if its free in Spain. I just don't want to do it alone. I think I rather pay for it and know that my husband is there for me. So I told him that I wanted to do it here; and he laughed and turned up the volume on the TV.
I guess I won't have to go through IVF after all...